Irrational thinking

Thought process. Its a funny thing, really.

I've often been told that I read too much into thibgs.
That I'm paranoid. Its true, I am. I am convinced tgat people hate me.
I'm convinced that everyone in my life is going to hurt me.
I went for a drink with a friend last night. He's married. So now his wife and kids are going to hate me, despite the fact that it is all totally innocent.

Whilst in the pub, someone spoke to me and it sounded like'him'.
It scared me and I couldn't get out of here quick enough.

Friend drove me home, and we spent a time chatting in the car. Even being in a car alone with a male friend waa making me feel uncomfortable.
So now I'm on edge. I can't stop crying. Its juat occurred to me that I haven't spoken to my kids in over an hour. They are fine, they are playing beautifully. Thankfully. And they don't know I'm upset.

We are waiting for some friends to come over for lunch and playdatte. They are 30 mins late. Jow disrespectful is that?!