Mood swings

I fail to understand how a persons mood can change so drastically within such a small amount of time.

Had a relatively nice day - been to the zoo with my bro, cousin and their friend. The sun has been shining all day, and saw some lions face-to-face (well, they were outside of the car, but right on the other side of the window!).

Now, however, I am feeling very low. I turned down an opportunity to go out this evening, instead opting to sit around and mope about how I push everyone away and the state of my living conditions.  At least I have a roof over my head, so thats one thing I have now managed to push to the back of my head. There isn't much I can do about the first one at the moment, so I thought I would look for some helpline numbers and info on rape and sexual abuse. I don't think that was such a good idea. I've gone from good mood, to low mood, to kicking myself, to being beside myself and wanting to do something drastic.

Going to leave this here but may well come back to it later.